Has God Had Enough of Us?

I thought I lost my faith in college. As much as I wanted to love God and to please him, I found that I excelled in the art of turning from God.

Since our creation, humanity has been divided. Adam and Eve had all that they could ever need, yet they desired the forbidden fruit. The Pharisees witnessed the healing power of Jesus, yet they attributed it to the devil. I sought to love God with all of my heart, yet I still thought and acted uncharitably.

Throughout Lent and especially today, we are reminded of how broken our lives can be, how our best intentions can lead us to sin, and how much we are in need of God’s endless love and grace.

  To hear of God’s distress with the Israelites, who have completely turned from His prescribed ways, and to hear the frustration of Jesus, who has loved perfectly only to be scorned, it appears as if God has had enough.

It is in this darkness, this shadow of doubt, that the voice of the Psalmist is most jarring, “If today you hear his voice, harden not your hearts.” As sinful as we have been, God, in his infinite mercy, cries out for us and yearns to be with us.

As we complete the first half of Lent, it is easy to become self-congratulatory and lukewarm for we have prayed, fasted, and given to those in need. However, now is the time to redouble our efforts and grow in humility because our will can only carry us so far; we need the grace of God to continue.

As much as I wanted to love God in college, I allowed pride and sin to corrupt that desire. It took a priest telling me that my desire to love God was both a gift from God and an indication of my faith for me to turn my life around.

May God, who so loved the world that he gave us his only son, help all of us to recognize the gift of our desire to love him, to claim that desire, and to love God with all of our hearts so that “if you today you hear God’s voice, harden not your hearts.”